Tuesday, August 25, 2009

time traveler

Time Traveler
made by me for my British penpal of 20 yrs

I recently met a friend whom I'd known for 20 years, but never met. We became penpals in 1989 via an ad for "get your own penpal" in the back of Rolling Stone magazine. I think for $5 one could send off for a list of international friends--you could specify nationality, language, sex, age, etc. Looking back, it could have been a rather seedy endeavor, but from my naive high school senior perspective, it seemed harmless enough. What I really wanted was a German friend to practice language, but little did I know, it would produce a long-lasting friendship...and 20 yrs later, a great vacation to western England...and beyond!

me confused in Piccadilly...Aug '09


Monday, August 24, 2009

hello, yellow brick road

follow the yellow brick road: The Wizard of Oz, Warner Bros.

Well week 1 of the new blog & I haven't contributed too much to it. I'm not going to fret or beat myself or of give myself the see-I-told-you-so's either. It just is what it is...and it will continue to be what I make it.

I saw Julie & Julia this weekend. Cute movie & Meryll Streep is so fantastic...and the whole story is very inspiring. Now, I'm not expecting my blog itself to do all that, but it was a fierce reminder of how putting an intention out there (even a seemingly unintentional intention) & letting the Universe work its magic is really what we are charged with doing. So that's exactly my intention with this blog...a forum to organize my ideas, knowing that by simply taking the steps in a direction, any direction, the Universe will lay the path for me to follow.

I haven't done alot this week...but I have had a wellspring of ideas that I've been capturing and nuturing and marinating and planning for. Mostly art, but some snippets of story/writing ideas too. It feels good to have the creative juices flowing & by documenting them, I am giving myself permission to explore them in due time. I cannot do it all at once & change will not happen overnight. I am slowly accepting this. But step by step, I will find my Oz at whichever rest-stop the Universe decides to construct it...I know building permits & zoning restrictions are probably a pain in the Emerald City!


Sunday, August 16, 2009

Claim It | Do It | Own It

*possibility on the horizon*
Caernarfon Castle, Wales
photo by me

This blog is really just for me--a place to start, to collect my thoughts, to hold myself accountable. If someone else gets something out of it, that's good. If it brings me into a community of other like-minds, that'll be great. If it forces me out of my fear of doing, that would be the best.

I turned 38 about a month ago. It's come after a long, slow, frustrating year of not feeling well or doing much living--a bit of a lost year it would seem to many and has seemed that way to me along the way. Of course, nothing is truly lost and as such, I've made a promise to myself to reclaim my life in the ways that the one-time whispers are now screaming for me to follow. A life of creativity. I still do not entirely know what that entails...I dabble in writing, in found-object art, in dreaming and scheming and imagining. But so far, I haven't given much energy to anything and therefore not much of anything has come to be.

Since turning 38: I've taken a trip abroad, met in person, for the first time, a friend whom I'd already known for 20 years, made a decision to distance myself from a relationship that wasn't serving me well, slept with a boy for the sole purpose of retelling it (okay, so I got alittle something out of it in the process), and committed to the promise of moving forward into this next year with creativity as my guide. Not a bad month really now that I think about it...and I want to create many more months like this one.

So here is where I will explore a life of doing...of creating, of discovering, of coming into whatever it is that I am being internally challenged with becoming. So here we are & I'm ready for my close up: Act 1, Scene 1, Take 38!